Sighting I had more than a decade ago still haunts me. I don’t know how to overcome it. How do I seek help? Therapy isn’t working.


Location: Belo Horizonte, Brazil

Date of sighting: Late 2011, cannot recall precise date.

Time of sighting: Sometime between 00:00 and 05:00

Duration of sighting: No longer than 30 seconds, no less than 15 seconds

Number of witnesses: 2

Descripton of sighting:

We were sleeping in my single bed, which was just below my big bedroom window, whose blackout curtains were fully closed.

Both of us woke up, very startled and heart racing.

It must have been way past midnight.

Blinding light is shining through the window. The window that is just above my bed, the single one that leads directly into the street. It makes no sense because the blackout curtains are covering the glass completely, and yet the light just passes through it.

This annoying sound keeps echoing in my head, hitting my skull like a nail, drilling my ears exactly like those 90s tube TV turning ON used to make, and I didn’t know where it is coming from – nor did it seem important given the blinding brightness I was experiencing.

I jump out of bed and turn around to face the window. My girlfriend is also standing on the other side of the bed, looking at the closed curtains, visibly shaken. With one leg standing with feet on the floor and the other bent over the bed, I reach for the drapery of the curtains that cover the window just above our pillows. At no moment did I have a discernible thought in mind, I was just reacting. In a quick motion, I spread apart the drape to see what is happening outside – the brilliance gets even brighter, engulfing all of the bedroom. I can’t see anything, it’s simply too bright. It felt as if there was a stadium floodlight just outside the window. In reflex, I use my hand to cover some of the light that stings my eyes a little bit. The framing of the windows is made of wood that connects small 4×6 glass panels, and I sway my head in an attempt to block the source of light in a way that whatever is shining can be better seen or understood, even if a little.

I still don’t know if my eyes adjusted to the brightness, or if the light dimmed gradually, but I was eventually able to see it. This is a Photoshop mockup of what my perspective was at that moment; https://imgur.com/GP5LyZw

At exactly 40 feet from my window, on the other side of the street, just by the curb, in front of a gated land lot, just below a street lamp, and hovering about 2 or 3 feet above the ground. It was a soft glowing object, that looked like an egg that was turned on its side and made of light. Its glow was a milky, white-bright in its core, but had a bluish-purplish glow on its outer rim. On the larger side of the “egg” I noticed a lump – not big enough to be considered a dome or sphere, but a subtle elliptical protrusion. It wasn’t hovering still; it moved in the same place in a disturbing flickering pattern, as if it was trying to move on X, Y, and Z-axis very, very quickly and in short lengths, as one would portray something that feels either ‘unstable’ or an engine about to blow up. I’ve described its movement pattern as “film grain”. The clarity coming from the light pole just above it made the thing cast a barely visible shadow on the street. I made a mockup of what I saw; https://imgur.com/9awoaPY

My Girlfriend is sobbing intensely in despair, tears running down her face, slobbering

I feel cold in my gut and neck, as if my heart stopped

My mind is blank. There’s nothing on it, I can only describe it as a dark empty space. The fear I felt was a void that restrained me, something I had never experienced in my life. It had a familiar ‘metallic’ phantom smell that a concussion would cause in me.

I stood there looking at that, without a single rational response, just droplets of cold sweat I felt running down my forehead. I felt like a deer must feel watching the headlights of a ten-ton truck aiming at me, not understanding that my fate was sealed, but knowing the hopelessness of it. I wasn’t there, I wasn’t in control. I was so little, so disempowered, I was nothing.

Whatever it was, was so much more than I.

That’s when I feel a hand touching my shoulders.

It’s my girlfriend (?)

There’s something wrong with her face, I cannot quite figure out what

I think it is her, but I cannot see her

There is a swirling darkness covering her facial features, almost like a black tornado seen from above, I can’t see her but she is not weeping uncontrollably anymore

Everything is now becoming hazy

She speaks

“Close the curtain, let’s go to sleep.”

As if a switch was turned off, those animalistic, raw, unconscious feelings that were pulsating within me, disappear. I still am not thinking, I still am not in control, but I don’t feel -anything- anymore.

Slowly I turned towards the window, closed the curtains, lay in bed with my face and belly upwards, and slept instantaneously because the dark came immediately. I don’t think I’ve ever fallen asleep so fast in my life, let alone in such an unorthodox position.

All of these events happened in 15 seconds or 30 seconds. It appeared to be very, very quick.

We woke up at the same time on the next day, a Sunday.

Something was different. I tried not to make eye contact and realized she was also avoiding it, side-eyeing me. My mind is slower than usual, even for Sunday standards.

I still recalled everything and wanted to talk about it, but I “didn’t quite feel like it”. It was on my mind, I remembered it perfectly – the waking up, the brightness, the shutting down – and yet I didn’t dwell on it.

I rationalize that it’s for the better, I don’t want to make her feel uncomfortable about sleeping in my house. After 10 minutes, I simply forgot about the whole event as if it was just another bad dream… but it sure wasn’t.

My dreams consist of shifting colors, fantastical lengths, and absurdist narratives that make no sense in real life with lots of different people in them. This dream was very real. I woke up and went to sleep within the same dream, I went to sleep and woke up the next morning in the same place, all the colors, textures and shapes were correspondent to reality, it was just me and the person I went to sleep with, and I could recall it from start to finish.

Unsettling, but the experience didn’t linger in my mind. It fades as if it didn’t happen. To this day I cannot understand why I felt this apathy towards such a traumatic experience that had just occurred.

Fast forward a couple of years or so.

It’s January 2014. I was watching the morning news and a story came up about a UFO causing the airport in Bremen, Germany to stop all Traffic;

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oc1O_LDQkss [Embed]

02:10 minutes mark

I didn’t even remember that I saw something like that, and it all came back to me. The entire event is now suddenly a memory.

Whatever was filmed in here, looks just like the thing I saw outside my bedroom window – but with a bluish outer rim instead of purplish.

I feel scared and really confused. I decided to talk with my girl about what happened.

She Remembers.

She says she remembers waking up that one night, with a very bright light coming through the curtains and the terrible annoying noise.

She doesn’t remember anything else after that – no strange glowing object, no touching my shoulder, nor telling me to close the curtains, no sleeping. Just the Waking-up part.

It fucked me up in several ways that I find hard to describe.

I was unable to look outside my window for weeks because it would make me recall the incident. I had trouble sleeping, often pulling all-nighters and only being able to sleep after sunrise.

I got used to waking up several times during the night, feeling I was being watched. The only time in my entire life I’ve ever prayed was to make the feeling that this thing was still around go away.

I can’t prove to myself that It was just a weird dream, and I can’t prove it was real either. It’s an experience that walks between fantasy and reality in the worst possible way.

Creeping in everything that I do, the lingering feeling of being powerless or doubting myself reappears. I’ve told this event to my brother; “First of all, realistically… that did not happen. What are the chances it happened to you, of all people? You, who studied UFOs almost your entire life. Secondly, I was sleeping in the bedroom just beside yours. Why didn’t you scream, maybe take a picture? I know you would. And lastly… It was a light. I know you, how would just a bright light scare my big brother?”

He is 100% correct.

I keep revisiting this experience, year after year after year – in hopes of remembering or recovering more information, maybe feeling differently about it.

I went and still do therapy because of this trauma. I just cannot let it go. It is as if a pact I made with myself, that “nothing like this would ever happen”, was broken and now I distrust myself.

I’ve read enough on similar cases to believe that there won’t ever be an explanation for this event, but I really want a resolution. I really want to overcome it, and I do not know how.

My recollection of these events occurred ten years ago, and nothing remotely similar to this “window incident” ever happened again.

Me and my Ex-GF are still friends, and although we both moved to different countries, we sometimes still message each other.

More than once I asked her if that really happened.

She always replies

“It did. I’m sorry It Did. I cannot explain it, but it happened.”

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