Distrustful of Mainstream Science Now?

I have always have held a huge interest in science, since I was a kid and then into adulthood and even focused on STEM in my secondary education (Environmental Science). I generally have always preferred reading about science over anything pop culture and most of the news I read is science based. With this life of science, I’ve always held a fierce belief that spirituality is a science that we just haven’t figured out yet. I’ve always believed in UAP and the possibility of alien life, as well. Spirituality and science combining are the only way we will understand consciousness and the true reality of existence, has been my belief since I was a teen.

Grusch’s congressional testimony, along with the recent UAP ammendment (and a deep dive in the accounts of abductees and government officials whistleblower accounts over the past decades) solidified it all for me that there is no doubt this is real. Which wouldn’t be such an issue for me, except it was discovering that NASA and mainstream science is complicit in the cover up that has me truly upset.

It’s one thing having science skeptical of these topics ; it’s another thing having them outright lie to us.

Now, I find that any news coming out about science regarding physics or space I can’t even read. Science acts like it is interested in finding life in the universe, when our governments literally already know there is and have been suppressing that information (and killing people to keep it suppressed). And what about archeology? The entire past histories of our ancestors and how we evolved?

Obviously physics and science that explains our physical world, and now even stretching into the quantum world, seems valid. But how can I take any sort of science committed to space exploration or universal physics or archeology seriously? It just makes me angry. It makes me wonder how extensive the lie is.

And what of all the budding scientists and astrophysicists? The amount of debt they are accruing to be indoctrinated in a lie?

How much of our reality has been deliberately kept from us?

I feel deeply distrustful of institutions that have helped build my world view of reality for 40 years.

Does anyone else feel this way?

This, to me, is much more damaging than finding out there are NHI. The foundation and paradigm of lies and violence to keep the lies in place is truly the oncological shock here.